I have spent much of the last several weeks fretting. Worrying that I am somehow letting my offspring down with the lack of Santa photos or strolls through the botanical gardens to see Christmas lights. Concerned that I am somehow damaging his childhood- removing a precious year of magic. Through the ever-present second guessing (and … Continue reading Christmas Magic
A few weeks ago I began a post with this wining prose: "I think it has finally happened. I have become either John or Max from Grumpy Old Men. It's a tossup which one, at this point. I am crotchety. The internet irritates me. The media grinds my gears even more. And mostly what I … Continue reading Still human, damn.
I put way too much pressure on these first sentences. Particularly if I have been away for a while. I look for a succinct and poignant way to describe my absence; one that will dovetail smoothly into the epic monologue I wish to craft. Frankly, after much gnashing of teeth, I have determined said goal … Continue reading 2020 has been a weird year
This little slice of the internet hasn't been on my radar as of late. Hell, it hasn't even been in the vicinity. Let's be frank, the adjustment to this "new normal" has been more akin to whiplash. Isolating, scary, uncertain. I have had millions of slivers of ideas- typically poetically pondered just before sleep steals … Continue reading Mother’s Day 2020
The other night, Moose snuggled into my arms in the rocking chair and declared that he wanted to see pictures of "the baby". To be honest, it took some sussing out, as at nearly four he is still not always a wordsmith. Through a wrinkled brow and patient questioning, it was determined that the baby … Continue reading Cherishing the time
I haven't been writing. Well, that's not accurate. I haven't been publishing. I have been writing. Clicking away at the keys to create a million drafts that are only a few paragraphs long, before I abandon them. Succumbing to what I deemed a pressure-induced writers block. But now that I have determined to face that … Continue reading Little bit o’ avoidance
There is an irony to the timing of this post- or rather the struggles I am having composing it. My last essay was about facing fear. Doing the things that scare you. Vulnerability. And here I sit, allowing my fear to silence me once more. Or at the very least, trying to. So, I am … Continue reading Sometimes, you gotta name the feeling
Fun fact: just like most things in life, getting started is the hardest part. I have been sitting here, staring at my keyboard with thoughts swirling for the last twenty minutes. I want to write- I actually have a vague idea of the point I wish to make. But I cannot get that first sentence … Continue reading Looking fear in the face
When I carved out this slice of the internet a little over two years ago, I had all of the ideas. Brimming with words- excited about sharing my perspective on the world. Motherhood. My life. As I sit in this chair, pecking at these keys, I don't possess the same amount of words. This is … Continue reading Ramblings of a sleepy mom
I have resurfaced! I have scribbled a thousand different ways to start this post. Mostly because I felt like I needed to take a deep dive into why I have been absent for so very long. There are handwritten pages that take that plunge- but mostly it comes to one thing- I had no idea … Continue reading I didn’t disappear!