I put way too much pressure on these first sentences. Particularly if I have been away for a while. I look for a succinct and poignant way to describe my absence; one that will dovetail smoothly into the epic monologue I wish to craft. Frankly, after much gnashing of teeth, I have determined said goal … Continue reading 2020 has been a weird year
Mother’s Day 2020
This little slice of the internet hasn't been on my radar as of late. Hell, it hasn't even been in the vicinity. Let's be frank, the adjustment to this "new normal" has been more akin to whiplash. Isolating, scary, uncertain. I have had millions of slivers of ideas- typically poetically pondered just before sleep steals … Continue reading Mother’s Day 2020
Cherishing the time
The other night, Moose snuggled into my arms in the rocking chair and declared that he wanted to see pictures of "the baby". To be honest, it took some sussing out, as at nearly four he is still not always a wordsmith. Through a wrinkled brow and patient questioning, it was determined that the baby … Continue reading Cherishing the time
Little bit o’ avoidance
I haven't been writing. Well, that's not accurate. I haven't been publishing. I have been writing. Clicking away at the keys to create a million drafts that are only a few paragraphs long, before I abandon them. Succumbing to what I deemed a pressure-induced writers block. But now that I have determined to face that … Continue reading Little bit o’ avoidance
Sometimes, you gotta name the feeling
There is an irony to the timing of this post- or rather the struggles I am having composing it. My last essay was about facing fear. Doing the things that scare you. Vulnerability. And here I sit, allowing my fear to silence me once more. Or at the very least, trying to. So, I am … Continue reading Sometimes, you gotta name the feeling
Looking fear in the face
Fun fact: just like most things in life, getting started is the hardest part. I have been sitting here, staring at my keyboard with thoughts swirling for the last twenty minutes. I want to write- I actually have a vague idea of the point I wish to make. But I cannot get that first sentence … Continue reading Looking fear in the face
Ramblings of a sleepy mom
When I carved out this slice of the internet a little over two years ago, I had all of the ideas. Brimming with words- excited about sharing my perspective on the world. Motherhood. My life. As I sit in this chair, pecking at these keys, I don't possess the same amount of words. This is … Continue reading Ramblings of a sleepy mom
I didn’t disappear!
I have resurfaced! I have scribbled a thousand different ways to start this post. Mostly because I felt like I needed to take a deep dive into why I have been absent for so very long. There are handwritten pages that take that plunge- but mostly it comes to one thing- I had no idea … Continue reading I didn’t disappear!
Hostile
I question most of my decisions. As an adult. A woman. A mother. It can sometimes be a little impossible to live in my brain. I have these traits that appear opposing on the surface- complete insecurity in my choices and a prickly defensiveness. The reason I say that they only appear conflicting is because … Continue reading Hostile
Super Hero
My son had his first moment of sheer terror last week. He departed the bathroom to see a fly in the hallway. A fly he thought had been banished from the safe enclosure of our home. A fly I thought had been dealt with. To say that the scream that exited my son was jarring, … Continue reading Super Hero
