I have held myself back for a very long time. Longer than I realized until recently. I have held myself back for many reasons, but it always comes back to the same underlying cause- fear. When Moose was a baby I would get anxiety at the idea of going out with him. I wasn’t afraid … Continue reading Fear

This past weekend I attended the wedding of my oldest friend. She is a kind soul that has tolerated my childhood tantrums and loved me through it all- even if she didn't always like me. To be fair, I was filled with attitude at a small age. I wasn't always likable.  Her home has been … Continue reading Blessings upon blessings

My mother sent me the above meme a few weeks ago via text, followed by the question "Did you get what you needed today?" I didn't answer. I didn't answer because the only response running through my brain was snarky. And quite frankly, that wouldn't have been fair. She was trying to be kind and … Continue reading Self Love?

Moose doesn't have a traditional family. He doesn't have the connected home life I dreamed of while he grew in the warm embrace of my womb. I imagined his father and I holding hands at our 50th wedding anniversary as he spoke of how we taught him how to love. How we showed him what … Continue reading Our Tribe

There are days that feel like a Three Stooges skit. Anything that can go wrong, does. This is the reality for people who are breathing, not just people trying to keep tiny humans alive. A couple of weeks ago Moose and I had one of those nights. It began with the best intentions. Moose had … Continue reading Cascade Failure