Some days I feel like I have it all figured out. My job, motherhood, adulting, everything. Other days- honestly I have no idea what I am doing. I have no idea how I made it to 32. When did I become an adult? When will I feel like an adult? How am I entrusted with … Continue reading Pieces of me

I am a control freak. I soften the truth by saying I am a planner. And in a manner of speaking I am. Just on steroids. It is my coping mechanism. Spoiler Alert- It does not work. But it makes me feel protected. If I can control all of the aspects of my life, if … Continue reading Loosening my grip

I agonized over needing my son with me for five days. I yelled and cried and prayed. And then he got to come home. I smiled with my whole body. I cannot explain the joy that filled me when they said I could take my baby home. Then reality hit. I was home with this … Continue reading Can I do this?

I had an entirely different post prepared for tonight. And by prepared, I mean mostly written. But life happened and I felt like jumbling the timeline a little. I will get back to my plan, the order of things that I want to write about, next week. So please excuse my time jump. Tuesday night … Continue reading A little detour

My son spent his first night in my hospital room with me and his father. I was in an out, the drugs made it impossible to stay awake. But his dad was great. He changed his diapers and hardly slept. But that's all I got. In the early morning of Moose's first full day, he … Continue reading The type of mother I am

So this has been a long time in the making. I have reached out to friends and family to see if there was interest, then to see about hosting recommendations, then to announce that I finally settled on a website and name. .  .all stalling tactics. I wasn't sure I could do this. I have … Continue reading Let’s do this!