At times, I can be a bit hyperbolic. A touch dramatic. Even a smidge excessive. Typically, this is expressed via very big emotions. I am not subtle in my feelings. I don't know how to be. I feel things deeply and most emotions make me cry. Happy. Sad. Scared. Mad. It's unfortunate. All that amounts … Continue reading Listen to your body
Author: Mommyhood Mayhem and Me
I am the single mother of a beautiful, energetic little man. I am bumbling through raising him and myself. When I am not chasing my tiny tornado around or writing, I am a residential designer. I have a company with my dad, which either makes me smart or insane. My world is ordered chaos and I love every second of it.
Potty Talk
If a bit of TMI (too much information) makes you a tad uncomfortable, this is your sign to turn back. Do not pass go. Gracefully exit this page and come back later. No judgement. Now, if you're still here, you were warned. . . I don't think I could have been properly prepared for how … Continue reading Potty Talk
A little glimpse into the past while
The last eight months have been hard and beautiful. Scary and enlightening. They have been a master class in sitting in discomfort, emotionally and physically. I have tried a few times to write, but I haven't been able to categorize the feelings, the experiences. I am now realizing, it is because they are too intertwined … Continue reading A little glimpse into the past while
New Christmas memories
I started this post a couple of weeks ago, following a hysterical misstep from my boyfriend. I am revisiting (and completing it) mostly because we are void of the Moose this week. When he is gone, I think of him constantly. I miss his voice. His stories. I look through my phone daily, rewatching silly … Continue reading New Christmas memories
Thanksgiving number five
Navigating co-parenting life does not necessarily get easier with the passage of time. But it gets...more formulaic, in a way. Most things are less of an emotional livewire, like in the early days. Every visitation, every holiday... hell every conversation left me feeling hurt, defeated. Empty. That isn't the case any longer. Most visitations trade-offs … Continue reading Thanksgiving number five
Change is gradual
I have a million thoughts swirling in this brain of mine. Like a word on the tip of your tongue, the thoughts all seem to be connected, but I cannot suss it out, just yet. I wanted a clear, captivating sentence to start it out. A precise thesis, if you will. However, it is eluding … Continue reading Change is gradual
First grade
Last year, the first day of school felt heavy. Anxious. Joyous. It was a life shift for me and the tiny human. Though, said child handled it with grace and unflappable confidence. I cried in my car. Last year, watching my "baby" walk into school with his overly large bookbag felt like I was leaving … Continue reading First grade
Getting lost in the wrong moments
Anxiety is a thief. The source is irrelevant. Be it work, motherhood, dating- the effect is always the same. A racing mind. Lack of focus. Bouncing knee. Tears entombed in a tight chest. Heavy sighs collapsing before relief. Anxiety steals my ability to fill my lungs completely. When the disquiet seizes my breath, I diligently … Continue reading Getting lost in the wrong moments
Wading my way back in…
I haven't published anything in quite some time. Not for lack of trying, if you take a gander in my drafts folder. I would love to say that todays outbreak of words are due to a moment of brilliance. Disappointingly, They are not. These words are spurred by the notice of my renewal fee. A … Continue reading Wading my way back in…
A new milestone
In my last draft, safely tucked in the shadows, my brain was working overtime to connect events. That somehow the uncomfortable situations are necessary to enumerate in order to allow me the indulgence of sentimentality. It's bonkers. I'm not sure where the idea was planted that I must earn saccharine emotions about parenthood. So fuck … Continue reading A new milestone
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