Change can be jarring for me. Even positive changes can feel destabilizing at times. I worried a bit that this was genetic. That I would pass this undesirable trait to my offspring. It seems the worry was all for naught. Which is pretty par for the course for me. Nearly three weeks ago the monster … Continue reading We have embarked on kindergarten
Author: Mommyhood Mayhem and Me
I am the single mother of a beautiful, energetic little man. I am bumbling through raising him and myself. When I am not chasing my tiny tornado around or writing, I am a residential designer. I have a company with my dad, which either makes me smart or insane. My world is ordered chaos and I love every second of it.
Coping mechanisms are not always your friend
Most love songs are codependent and problematic. Not to sound anti-romance. I'm not. I would venture that I am real-world romantic. I find romance in the every day. The surprise pastry purchased because it was thought I would enjoy it. The extra tight hug after not seeing someone you love for a while. Being someone's … Continue reading Coping mechanisms are not always your friend
Take the damn photo
At the beginning of 2021 I finally took myself to see an ENT. My days of experiencing light headedness and nausea were alarmingly frequent. Migraines were increasing in intensity and regularity. Nearly the first day I had health insurance again, I had an appointment to see the doctor. I had my ears and hearing checked … Continue reading Take the damn photo
Here I am again
I feel like I am starting over. Again. The past eighteen months have held so much change. Something I am not particularly adept at navigating. Some of the changes have been terrifying-because vulnerability-but absolutely worth it. And quite delightful once I pushed past the discomfort of leaving my shell. Other changes, such as the one … Continue reading Here I am again
Apprehension seizes the words
I adore Brene Brown. Her studies and subsequent Ted Talks and Netflix special on vulnerability have given me many moments of introspection over the years. In a moment of difficulty to sleep, I decided to turn on one of her podcasts. I must admit, I am a terrible podcast listener. I am not consistent. Not … Continue reading Apprehension seizes the words
Five is approaching…
For the past several months the same thought has been occupying my mind. Maybe the observation is prompted by my own age increase, Moose's impending birthday, or just surviving a really insane year. I sit in Moose's room as he slumbers. Our nightly routine complete when I hear his gentle breathing and watch his relaxed … Continue reading Five is approaching…
Christmas Magic
I have spent much of the last several weeks fretting. Worrying that I am somehow letting my offspring down with the lack of Santa photos or strolls through the botanical gardens to see Christmas lights. Concerned that I am somehow damaging his childhood- removing a precious year of magic. Through the ever-present second guessing (and … Continue reading Christmas Magic
Still human, damn.
A few weeks ago I began a post with this wining prose: "I think it has finally happened. I have become either John or Max from Grumpy Old Men. It's a tossup which one, at this point. I am crotchety. The internet irritates me. The media grinds my gears even more. And mostly what I … Continue reading Still human, damn.
2020 has been a weird year
I put way too much pressure on these first sentences. Particularly if I have been away for a while. I look for a succinct and poignant way to describe my absence; one that will dovetail smoothly into the epic monologue I wish to craft. Frankly, after much gnashing of teeth, I have determined said goal … Continue reading 2020 has been a weird year
Mother’s Day 2020
This little slice of the internet hasn't been on my radar as of late. Hell, it hasn't even been in the vicinity. Let's be frank, the adjustment to this "new normal" has been more akin to whiplash. Isolating, scary, uncertain. I have had millions of slivers of ideas- typically poetically pondered just before sleep steals … Continue reading Mother’s Day 2020
Mommyhood Mayhem and Me 